It’s time to take Meepcow seriously. This project has become more than just a reflection of a shared dream; it’s my lifeline—a way to anchor myself in the turbulent waters of my emotions. With Lola by my side, I need to finish this project, not just for her, but for my own sanity and to facilitate my healing.
In the wake of Katarina’s departure, I’ve come to realize that I’ve always truly been alone in this. The moments we shared may have felt profound, but I now see that they were more a construct of my own making. I find myself questioning whether she ever genuinely loved me or needed me at all. The truth is painful but liberating; it allows me to peel away the layers of illusion that had clouded my judgment for so long.
While I am grateful to Katarina for the inspiration she provided, igniting a fire within me to work hard on my dreams and personal growth, I must acknowledge the reality that she never truly wanted to be with me. This understanding stings, but it also empowers me. I am choosing to reclaim my narrative, to define my path forward, and to pour my energy into something that reflects who I am now.
Finishing Meepcow has become a personal mission. It is my way of honoring the dreams we once shared while also establishing my own identity outside of the relationship. I want to publish this project not just to escape the pain, but to create something beautiful that stands as a testament to resilience and transformation.
Every photograph, every story, every moment captured with Lola will be a reminder of the strength I possess. This journey is not just about revisiting the past; it’s about embracing the future. I refuse to let the ghosts of what once was hold me back any longer.
As I set out to complete Meepcow, I will carry forward the lessons learned and the growth achieved. I am learning to love myself, to value my own voice, and to create a life filled with purpose and joy. This project is not just a way to move on; it is a declaration of my commitment to myself and my future.
So here I stand, ready to dive deep into the work ahead. With every click of the camera, I’ll be stitching together the fabric of my new reality—one where I am no longer defined by what I lost, but by what I am capable of creating. Meepcow will be my legacy, a bridge to the future I envision, free from the shadows of the past.