Today marked the closing of a chapter in my life that had been lingering for far too long. I finally said my last goodbye to Katarina. It wasn’t an easy decision, nor was it sudden, but it was necessary. I felt the need to pen this final farewell, not out of anger or lingering hope, but out of acceptance and closure.
A few days ago, we exchanged words for what I know will be the last time. Her message was clear: she was over me, indifferent to what we once had. Surprisingly, I found myself at peace with this revelation. The girl I once adored is no longer there. Time, choices, and circumstances have changed her into someone unrecognizable. The Katarina I loved has been replaced by someone embracing a lifestyle I neither understand nor want any part of. Harsh as it sounds, the path she has chosen feels distant, and to me, it is deeply off-putting.
Life, though, continues forward. Today was mostly filled with chores—mundane yet grounding. Soon, I’ll dive back into my creative projects, specifically making new content for my YouTube channel, which has become a passion and an outlet for my energy. Alongside that, I’m thinking of recommitting to a strict Huel diet to fine-tune my health. My body and mind have been adjusting to my new job, which, despite its demands, has opened up opportunities I never thought possible.
In two weeks, I’ll make a return journey to a place that holds memories both sweet and bittersweet—a bed and breakfast where Katarina and I first shared a moment of true closeness. I plan to capture photos of the sites we visited, a symbolic step in reclaiming those memories for myself. It’s strange how life works; back then, finances were tight, and her excuses to avoid revisiting were endless—her dog, other obligations. Now, with the newfound stability this job offers, I have the means to go on these trips that I once only dreamt of.
The next few months look promising. I’m planning a trip to Charleston in the early spring, when my vacation kicks in. This time, it won’t be shadowed by past longing or regret. It will be a new experience, a new chapter, and a chance to explore life on my own terms.
Here’s to new beginnings, new journeys, and finding peace where there was once only pain.