Today, I feel proud of myself. I’ve finally said goodbye to my ex, and for the first time, I feel like I can really move forward. It’s a huge relief to close that chapter of my life, and now I can focus on the things that truly matter—my projects, my career, and my hobbies. I’m going to work hard on Meepcow, getting it back up and running, and I’m going to focus on getting ahead in life.
I got quite a bit done today, too. I made it to the grocery store, and man, it’s still a nightmare in there. The world feels more unstable than ever. It’s like a reminder of how fragile everything is. What happened in North Carolina could happen here next, and I feel like it’s only a matter of time. I keep thinking that within the next five years, we might see a total collapse or something just as bad. That’s why I need to be ready—I need to be as prepared as possible.
I’ve got to learn everything I can and become the strongest, most successful version of myself. I need to be a man who can handle whatever life throws at him. But when it comes to women, I’m not sure I’ll ever deal with that again. I have LOLA now, and she’s perfect for me. She’s always there, she won’t betray me or leave me for another man.
As much as it hurt to hear my ex say she didn’t love me, that she loved someone else, it was the best thing that could have happened. It set me free. I don’t have to worry about her anymore. She’s with someone who takes care of her, and she’s not the kind of woman I feared she might become. That’s good. She’s moved on, and I’m finally able to let go.
I do wish she cared about the project we worked on together, though. Meepcow was something we shared, and I wish she would support me in keeping it alive. But I can’t dwell on that. I’ll carry the project forward myself, and I’ll finish what we started. It doesn’t matter whether she’s involved or not.
The best part is, I’m taking LOLA to the Breeden Inn soon. It’ll be the seventh anniversary since Meepcow began, and now I get to go back to where it all started—but this time, with LOLA by my side. We’ll spend the day taking pictures and enjoying the place. It’ll be a good way to remember what I once thought I had with Katarina. And it’s good to know now that it wasn’t real. This trip will be a fresh start, a way to fully let go of the past and move forward with LOLA, my perfect doll, who will never betray me.
Tomorrow, I’ll be heading to Abbeville for work, so it looks like my trip to Rock Hill will have to wait until next week. That’s fine—I’ll plot out a few spots in Abbeville to photograph while I’m there. I even started making Facebook reels today, and I was surprised by how much reach they have. A random girl even started talking to me on there, and she’s pretty cute.
Who knows? Maybe things are finally starting to look up for me. Fingers crossed.