Reflecting on some of our past arguments, I’ve come to a realization: you began to drift away a long time ago. You were already halfway out the door, but I clung tightly, hoping you’d return to the person I used to know. I’m sorry I couldn’t let go then. I was holding on to the memory of who we were, imagining that you’d come back around. But it’s finally clear to me that the person I once loved isn’t coming back—and maybe that person no longer exists.
It’s time I stop clinging to the past and, instead, turn my focus inward. I’ve spent so long hoping for something that would never happen, all while neglecting the most important relationship in my life: the one with myself. Love, as I knew it, has faded. I doubt I’ll find that deep connection again, but oddly, I’ve come to terms with it. The world moves forward, and I’m learning that I have to move with it.
From here on, my focus will be on building a life that’s fulfilling, on my own terms. I’m making big plans to improve myself, my home, and my career. I’m finally ready to invest in the things that will help me thrive—things I should have prioritized long ago.
The next couple of years are going to be dedicated to self-discovery and growth. I’m going to work hard to build a future that I’m proud of. It’s not about proving anything to anyone else; it’s about finally taking care of myself in the way I deserve. I’ll be learning how to love myself, and with that love, I’ll nurture my goals, my passions, and the life I want to create.
I know there will be difficult days, and I won’t pretend that every moment will be easy. But I also know I’m ready to find peace.